shaman's thoughts

If we can accept that there is no matter as such (Dr. Max Plank, Quantum phycisist) And that what matter is here in any form is here because it was intended here through a field of energy, We will be well on our way to not caring abut where the couch should be when the guests arive! Or why did Bush get reelected again with all the brains out there saying this is wrong, war is not the answer! LET GO AND LET GOD, ACCEPT THE FLOW OF TAO-CHI.

Well traveling does this to you. Time loses its meaning and somehow being near loved ones makes it even more an experience of abnormal porportions. There is a lesson here for what we think of time in different geographical places, and why is it so?

Be an appreciator not a complainer. Embrace every event of your life with all its distressful manifestations because it is the Force of the river of life that is doing! You simply be. Be a kind heart in the face of all hatreds, Be a source of smile where there is sadness; Be an appreciator of all and see beauty in all, always.

Assume this much my child; Behind that which is seen, making it visible and the very nature of sight, is THE SOURCE from which all things eminate. Know for certain my child this other; Unless you the person make that SOURCE OF ALL THINGS your center of calm, you will not know true serenity.

Where will the journey end? Where will the foot prints end, leaving no marks in the sand? And the shoes laces come off by the carefree hands of my rested soul? Where will I then spread the carpet of leasure, to sit and listen to passersby? where will you stop O' traveller of time? Pause to see your soul's surface full of green leaves of the grass in the field where they buried you.

We seem to concern ourselves far too much with what others think. Whether it is about us, or about a mutual subject of interest, a new relationship, a customer, a job interview. The very act of having that thought about how should I say this or that, how would they react if I do this or that, has already created the separation of you from your true self expression. This self expression, if it was coming from an honest, kind, and gentle place within you aught to be always enough and never second guessed, because you cannot control what people do in reaction.

The most important descision we have to make in our life, says Entstien; Is to decide whether we live in a friendly or a hostile world. Do we believe that all is hopeless with our world daily or can we see the grand plan which is in perfect harmony? Do we see the inteligent mind behind the vast universe or do we go on mumbling about who fault is it that there are so many misfortunes befalling inocent folks? Link up to THE SOURCE and be certain.

For the most part all of us really do not know the meaning of being content. The objects of our desires always seem one or several steps away. Give me your ear my child and listen intently. As God or Spirit, or The Source of all things, our origion is seemingly out of reach, we will for always go here and there looking for something to satisfy the need to know our Source. Money, possesions, social statuses, even our loved ones kids and family will all fall short of fulfilling that need. It is only when we realize that the hole in our hearts can only be filled by that from which we are separated that we can truely have any sense of satisfaction lasting.

What is your attention on? What is you intention for your life? If you are too busy being something else or somebody else for whatever reason, then don't be surprized that those things and those people decide the shape of your life for you. Do you hear me my child? I too will be dead and gone soon enough, you still have to make wise decessions on your own my love.

If I can learn a lesson from every event of my life that seems frustrating or hopeless, then I have been the good student I'd always hope I could be. There are no accidents in life; Now that is one big lesson which seems to keep repeating itself. I am more than certain now than ever before that as I think and say and do, so shall the energies of my life produce the events from which I must learn how not to think, say, and do in the future. The wind and the Sun and all the forces of nature work hand in hand so that I may not live a life wasted in ignorance and unaware!

Never mind the dog, beware of the owner with the gun! You'll fair well in the life to come (and I guarantee you it is coming) if you mind the owner and forget about the dog.

Patience is truely a virtoues thing. And much like love, the more of it you use and give, the more of it you end up with!

Did you get what I was talking about yesterday? The very thing that I consider to be the "real me" is what is keeping me from achieving and being all that I can be. The Ego! this me who say I am what I have, I am my posetions and positions, I am my self! My children! So long as you separate yourselves from that from which you came from, by addressing you as separate, you will always have confusion, axiety, fear, hatred and discomfort.

Don't walk proudly on this Earth my child. Keep in mind always that the mighty Creator ever present is walking beside you, as close as the vien on your neck. A profound humility before such a force is only proper, but more than that it is through this humbleness that you are elevated to the hights of Christ like men who walked this Earth long before you leaving only these lessons by which we can truely attain freedom from the Maya.

Can we talk about the same stuff as yesterday? Good, I don't want to sound like a preacher or an infomercial. Just realize this my good children, keep physically active every day even if it is just digging up dirt and putting back in the same hole! Just don't let the body go into atrophy. Remember that only through daily connection to THE SOURCE can you ever be free of what ails you mentally as well as physically. Time will prove how on target this old man has been all along. Just keep showing up for life ready!

Lets get this point home one more time if I may. We are not humans here having spiritual experiences. We are Spirits having a human experience. OK? What is the difference you might ask? Well at the Quantum level of life (this is the science which studies the subatomic matter) everything matter as such had its origon in a field of mostly emtpy space and energy. Every matter! the mountains, you, me, the trees, the stars, everything that is manifested in this material realm had its origon in a field (yet to be determined, but let's say God's forcefield, the Spirit) and from there through the miralces of the forces present everywhere, like "dark matter", "Electromagnetism" and "Nuclear weak force" stuff bonded with other stuff and voila! here we are. Then why all this fuss over who did what to whom and why? Keep your self cleanly connected to that source from which you came from my child, and all will be well.

found myself talking to the mirror today. who is that man looking back at me through the glass? I murmured realizing that once again I have to admit that who I am on the outside, this flesh and bone is so quite an stranger to my spirit. It is almost as if I the Spirit was put in this prison, this mold and was told that I need to learn somethings whether I the spirit wanted to or not. The problem most of us run into is that we do mistake the one in the mirror for the real self and thereby loose all touch with the true self within. When this mold is all dust in the end, how would I then see my true self? I have to keep reminding me through you that I am not this vehicle by which my self gets around.

Where were we? Oh yes fasting! Why am I talking about this for three days in row? Well dahh! I am fasting, and what better subject than sharing what makes humans feel better. It is only hard the first day. Try to have a bite of something in the morning (or whenever is your morning) a bowl of oatmeal or something like that,wholesome and energy producing. Set aside an time beyond which you will not even try a little cookie, and continue drinking water or some cleansing herbal tea. You will feel better when you're done. If you have any health issues consult your doctor of course. Like more info on healthful living? go to www.shaman19.com

A regular monthly fast can be as simple as 3 days of liquid intakes (such as whole fruit juices, vegetable juices, herbal teas). This action will flush and clean the internal organs. It will give the body a chance to rest and rejouvanate. Any time we can force decipline on ourselves, we will come out stronger at the other side.

Along the same lines of sermons as yesterday, let's talk about fasting. At least once a month forcing hunger on the self has so many benefits it would take a book to list them all. But safice to say that as a decipline for the mind and the spirit, it ranks right up with any chanlenge life can through at you to wake you up! And don't get me started on how good you feel after.

We worry and think far far too much. It is as if we enjoy the pain the worrisom side of us brings. Then we top this worry wort with a generous dose of aches and pains, moan and groans, then we pour the syrup of hate over the whole pile. Oh yeah! God does not exists, otherwise why would "HE" let me go through this crap? Me the inocent free spirited loving guy! OK then! Let us find the real colprit and hang him by the balls. Oh wait, it is ME! dahh

"Who-soever amongst you without any sin, let him through the first stone" Well then, I thought so! Judge not lest ye shall be judged with the same standards and not be able to live up to the expectations you yourself created.

Learning to flow with the events of my life has been an ongoing lesson for nearly all my adult life. To take the path less travelled however, has been also the way I have done most things I do in life. The two concepts here are at once complimentary and opposites. That indeed is why simple things baffle most folks. A river does not care who's backyard it flows in, it does so by obeying the laws of nature unquestionably.

We all have this daily conversation inside amongst our many selves! Am I living to my full potential? Am I living the life I can die a comfortable death from? Am I a better person than I was last year? How does one measure one's progress if not in material gains and worldly stuff? What system of measuring do I choose to judge my own humanity and the reasons for my own life? Answering these questions must play an important role in our lives if we are to ever be serene and die a good death.

"In my world nothing ever goes wrong" These are strong words from one hell of teacher. He tried to inspire his students to realize that in spite of all the death, hunger, destrution, and disharmony in the world around them, there will always be a place where balance is kept as a matter of LAW! What law? you ask, The law of the universal balance which is not dependant on time or space

"In my world nothing ever goes wrong" These are strong words from one hell of teacher. He tried to inspire his students to realize that in spite of all the death, hunger, destrution, and disharmony in the world around them, there will always be a place where balance is kept as a matter of LAW! What law? you ask, The law of the universal balance which is not dependant on time or space

What is the best thing I can do with my life? What is it I am suppose to be doing with this "Gift" of life? I am learning more and more that this gift is to be given away not held on to. That is one tough act. I happen to like the gift and want to keep it. Evident as it may seem that I cannot hold on to liquid Mercury, I keep trying like the fool that I am anyway.

The Sparrows will come again next spring. The rivers still run to the Sea, and night turns to day every twelve hours. I write these lines to tell my future self what he most needs to hear.

We must start with this old head that has been on top of our body for however many years as we know it. To try to change not having fully known how this old head works, is like getting a new machine and having to start all over again without any user guide material! Accept yourself as you are now my child, change comes much easier using the old head itself to direct the changes.

Happy reunion with the family every one! All is well that end well aey? Be patient with the young ones and graceful with the elders. Let life teach you what you need to learn by bieng willing!

Tomorrow I will cook for about 400 people my anual thanksgiving meal at a 4 star resturant. The cooking and the serving and the cleaning afterwards takes about 11 hours. God bless the day and help me get through it without anamosity or pain.

Soon we will all wake up and realize that we have the wrong leadership in DC and it will be too late to try to fix the mess this administration has attached to our image in the world. Does it matter in the long run? In the big picture of things? No, not really

We actually have to use the same head which got us in any given mess, to get us out of it! As you know, resolving a problem with the same perception which created it is impossible. So what is one to do, can a adict who is on dope find his own way of freeing himself from the addictionf? Not until he is sober! Yes my goo one, we must learn to change the way we look at things in order to change them. It is all about Preceptions and Intentions.

PRACTICE RADICAL HUMILITY! AND KEEP IN MIND YOU CANNOT RESOLVE A PROBLEM BY CONDEMING IT OR ITS PERCEIVED CAUSES.

It seems that we all can learn a bit more about being quiet. As the Chinese put it; "good speech maybe silver, but silence is pure gold!" In fact most old wise sages and teachers have all recomanded a period of silence on a regular basis.

It is so easy to be a bum, or is it? If the person has enough awareness to realize that he is a bum, a parasite in the eyes of the society then he is in much more internal suffering than others could ever put upon him. It is not so easy being a awakened bum!

Try to sit up straight, walk with your entire back at a right angle to the ground. Be aware of your posture and in doing so, you have awakened the sleepy head my child. Any daily deciplined act of self improvement is indeed a fine religion.

Serendipity has not been a factor in most my life's achievements, many were put at the doorsteps of a college all paid for by one source or another, but very few actually got the degree. My greatfulness then is to God for making me an stuburn old fool!

Bring thou thine sweet wine, bring it on! Let the crowd of masses be merry and durnk with thine nectar. But let me stay with mine own Earthan wine, deep in sorrow and self pitty. For a while, this too is for a while until light shines again and soberiety sets in. And thus we go hether and yonder and no matter where you go in the world to get away, oops there you are!!

Death only comes once. It never announces its arrival nor do we get to choose its timing. I ask you then my child, why all the fuss over the killing? An action always produces reactions, you hit me I'll hit you back, and if was with a gun, well, here is mine! We do the shooting and the choosing, yet we blame death for the dying.

We will wake up someday soon and realize it is too late! Alas I do not see any resolution beyond acceptance for the hacoc the politicians and power mongers of the world are about to unleash upon the EARTHANS.

It seems the older one gets the more it becomes evident that the need to go home is instinctive. A part of (the spirit) too, needs to go home instictively. HOME IS WHERE I CAN REST AND NEVER BE WEARY AGAIN.

building trust sometimes requires taking risks. Being ready and willing to lose something dear in order to gain the possible trust for having the courage to let go.

They asked vice president Dick Chaney how are you so sure you're gonna find the weapons of mass destruction in Iraq? "I am certain we will because we still have the receipts" He replied without blinking an eye and quite seriously too!

I was reminded again evers so gently by my LORD that it is best to give without any expectations. Give because it feels good, be the first to greet another human and want more peace for others than you do for your self. In this manner my child you will reach Nirvana most certainly.

There is much to be greatful for when things are going well. My LOVE teach me how to love you when I am bitter,sad and nothing is going my way. Hold my hands when I am blinded by the pains of this world and my own ignorance and arrogance.

It is the easiest thing to do physically, have a smile on our faces. Yet, it has become the hardest task in the face of growing fears and anxieties created mainly by the politicians of the world. Good LORD help me keep my smile of kindness painted on my face.

An attitude of gratitude will make for more abundance in my life; No doubt about it! The opposite too is true, the more I moan and groan, the more I'll have to moan and groan about.

Depression is just anger without enthusiasm. Anger on the other hand is depression run amock! Find your balance my child.

If I sit idle long enough feeling sorry for my self about the things I do not have, I will most certaily, lose the things I do have.

If we only knew how our words and thoughts effect the world around us, how interactive indeed our energies are with our environment; We'd be a lot more careful of them. I choose to not let other's negativity stain my mind with darkness. Thank you my Love for showing me how to be accepting and flowing in times of hardship and in face of arrogance and uncaring souls around me.

Go put your masks on and play a little. It is Halloween! But then what masks will you put on at home? Who are you? Be careful most wishes have a way of Quantumly being granted.

The very notion of SIN gives way to negativity. We all have much to learn about how to be in harmony with the universe and GOD without feeling guilty about our shortcomings. A good way to teach ourselves this art is to practice not looking down on others for their shortcomings. This act alone can free much guilt ridden anxiety from our lives. LIVE IN PEACE WITH LIFE!

Still working on letting go? Yes I see that! good luck with that my child, you are in my prayers. Just don't ever give up.

"Problems cannot be solved at the same level of awareness that created them." Albert Einstein (1879-1955). So what is he saying? Raise your level of awarness and you may have a shot at solving your problems. And just how do you go about raising the level of you awareness? Isn't this what we've been talking about for about 21/2 years now? Let's go do it then and quit your bitching!

Every day is another blank canvas before me, whether I do any "Intentional" painting or not, there WILL BE on that canvas the story of my life for this day, painted by the energies with which I choose to surround my self with this day. A blank one is never produced, as even my thoughts are enough for the hands of destiny to paint with or about. Then this canvas is displayed for all to see! Where do I hide my inequities? Where shall we go to hide?

Ask me where I have been the past few days? I could not tell you for certain as these are indeed dead days!

What is after all the meaning of this life if not MU! From nothing we come, busy ourselves with matters which will not last as all things must fade and die. And, within a blink of an eye in real time we fade and die to nothingness. Is this nothing stuff really worth having a heartatack over? Is it worth agonizing over any part of it? is it really?

Light up a candle instead of complaining about the darkness. Let your thoughts not wonder long in (who said what and how come I cannot, have not)'s of this world. Always maintain hope in the LIGHT that ilumens the world and the SOURCE which nourishes its inhabitants.

Expectations oh expectations! how you have ruined many a good days with your wicked creeping in from the dark corners of our minds. "I thought they'd surely write back, I'm so baffled and saddened.." yes indeed I expected and not having been fulfilled the same energy turned into sadness and anxiety. LET GO OF IT CHILD, DO NOT OWN YOUR MOVES BE FREE!

It is imperative that we all learn to "get along". One of the ways to make this happen is by not going into our daily life's activities filled with thoughts of "this can’t be done, too hard, impossible, I'm tired of life....” Because the very negative nature of these thoughts, will insure our failure at creating working relationships with just about anyone. It is an old cliché', but hey think good and good things will happen to you. When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change!

From the first spec of life to the vast universe which we have now, the one Constant has been the INTENTION! It is my intentions that would carry me through the rest of my life and cause the energies to flow in and out of my days. Let my INTENTIONS always be Trust in the UNIVERSAL SOURCE OF LIFE!

Is any color more gloomy than the color of death? Indeed I have seen death and am not afraid of anything else. My own demons seem to think they can have the better of me, they are dreaming! I have friends in high places and my wish is their command. Bring it on baby!!

So the teacher teaches what he needs to learn most himself. I miss the days in Iran, I had a purpose, to help others see the light of their inner strength I was strong and full of wisdom, patience, and grace. Now alone in the little town of Cornville, Arizona I find I have lost my purpose and no longer care if I am filled with grace or not. I do not seek God's company regularly and seem to be still quite hazy about the direction of my life. Once thing seems to be clear as always however, God the SOURCE of all that is, will find a way to bring HIS GRACE back into my life full time. I realize that it is the emotional need for the family I just lost that is weighing heavy on my mind. But this too shall come to pass as have most other matters of emotional needs. I will be in touch with them online and via the phone, and get back to doing good here for my kids and friends and my self too. I will be having my time with HIM again soon enough. I will be patient and accepting for now!

So the teacher teaches what he needs to learn most himself. I miss the days in Iran, I had a purpose, to help others see the light of their inner strength I was strong and full of wisdom, patience, and grace. Now alone in the little town of Cornville, Arizona I find I have lost my purpose and no longer care if I am filled with grace or not. I do not seek God's company regularly and seem to be still quite hazy about the direction of my life. Once thing seems to be clear as always however, God the SOURCE of all that is, will find a way to bring HIS GRACE back into my life full time. I realize that it is the emotional need for the family I just lost that is weighing heavy on my mind. But this too shall come to pass as have most other matters of emotional needs. I will be in touch with them online and via the phone, and get back to doing good here for my kids and friends and my self too. I will be having my time with HIM again soon enough. I will be patient and accepting for now!

A day without contact with THE SOURCE and the heart goes limp at the first sign of difficulties. A week without the contact and you will be a walking target for problems. Go longer and my child you are now at the mercy of the floating energies without any control or say so in the direction of your life.

As a Zen teacher put it once; "that towards which your gaze is fixed on and your motionsdirected towards, you will reach and obtain in the end" In other words keep the faith and keep your eyes on the prize and its yours. Easier said than done. But do-able.

Let's go boldly where most dare not to. Let's break the traditions of hundreds of years. Let a Muslim become a Buhdist, a Christian turn to Tao ways and let the Zen master bow to the west when in meditation! Let's wreak havoc on this Earht and see what happens! Oh, and while we are at it let us not forget cause and efffect. Some changes are good, some are not so good! My child pray to gain the wisdom to know the difference.

SOK in a Dashti dialect in Iran means to poke at, to cause a reaction in another person. Life does this daily by giving us people, things or places that won't be what we wish them to be and accepting what is in peace and harmony.

Thank you! Let there flow in my life energies abundant with effectionate grace. Let me continue to be an instrument of healing and serenity. Let me sing the song of LIFE daily my love!

It seems like I do so much better when there are others who count on me. I become this strong pillar of hope and positive thinking. I carry myself like a seasoned old man, calm, serene, wise and ready to accept anything that life has to throw at me. This above all else is the single most important reason why I am who I am today, because I always pray to be an instrument of help and service without any regards for my own gain. Voila! life gives me exactly what I pray for or ask for, I am always put where help is needed and I fulfill my desire!

Not a drop of rain fell upon this barren land, nor did the sparrows sing this spring, the vacant field of his heart remained a sand doon for the snakes and lizards to bore through. This then, is the Hell with which he was promissed. A self made dessolate heart which has not taken time to keep in touch with THE SOURCE!

We bow and are so humbled daily befor kings and big shots of the world and yet when most of us are told to bow before the CREATOR, that SOURCE OF LIFE, we find ourselves reluctant. Imagine if you were indeed God the Creator and this human creation of yours kept on denying your place in his life and did not cooperate for the good of all creation! what would you do to such a creature? None can be as patient as God is with us children of Adam. Though we deserve to be kicked in the butt!

shaman's daily thoughts There are times in life when having to accept and just accepting are one and the same. If you feel life is "Pushing YOU" and "forcing YOU" to accept a condition, you have two choices either accept or keep fighting off these forces. Winning at all costs is not all it is cracked up to be. Let go of the need to always win or be in control, let go and accept. You will find that the freedom and serenity after, is far more precious.

There are times in life when having to accept and just accepting are one and the same. If you feel life is "Pushing YOU" and "forcing YOU" to accept a condition, you have two choices either accept or keep fighting off these forces. Winning at all costs is not all it is cracked up to be. Let go of the need to always win or be in control, let go and accept. You will find that the freedom and serenity after, is far more precious.

There are times in life when having to accept and just accepting are one and the same. If you feel life is "Pushing YOU" and "forcing YOU" to accept a condition, you have two choices either accept or keep fighting off these forces. Winning at all costs is not all it is cracked up to be. Let go of the need to always win or be in control, let go and accept. You will find that the freedom and serenity after, is far more precious.

The day you can control your breathing my child, have it stop at your will and resume at your command you can call yourself God! Untill that day my good one learn to aknowledge THE SOURCE OF THIS BREATH WHICH SUSTAINS LIFE WITHIN YOU AND CARRIES YOU. Use this to meditate on.

It is a good day to be alive. I shall wait on you my Lord to move the energies within my life and direct my path. Save me from my own ignorance and haughty self. All that emenates from you is good only if I choose to see the good and be patiently grateful.

"He WHO LEARNS MUST SUFFER. EVEN IN OUR SLEEP PAIN THAT WILL NOT FORGET FALLS DROP BY DROP UPON THE HEART. UNTIL IN OUR DESPAIR COMES AGAINST OUR OWN WILL, WISDOM FROM THE AWEFUL GRACE OF GOD." This is a quote from an American poet which I have unfortuantely forgot the name of. It is just so apropriate now .

The reluctance of the body in doing what is "hard" is very natural. We are lazy animal by nature. Even doing what we are certain gains us much in the end seems to be easier to put away and ignore than our self afflicted adictions to food,drugs, etc. It is only through daily strugle that one can appreciate the result of that for which he has toiled. Ahh success such sweet splendor!

The reluctance of the body in doing what is "hard" is very natural. We are lazy animal by nature. Even doing what we are certain gains us much in the end seems to be easier to put away and ignore than our self afflicted adictions to food,drugs, etc. It is only through daily strugle that one can appreciate the result of that for which he has toiled. Ahh success such sweet splendor !

The reluctance of the body in doing what is "hard" is very natural. We are lazy animal by nature. Even doing what we are certain gains us much in the end seems to be easier to put away and ignore than our self afflicted adictions to food,drugs, etc. It is only through daily strugle that one can appreciate the result of that for which he has toiled. Ahh success such sweet splendor!

Here is another way of saying the same thing I have trying to say for a while now. Unless you like being depressed and miserable, confused and unhappy, you need to do some sort of daily practice of calming the churning mind. This mind needs the prayer/meditation time as much as your body needs oxygen. What is so hard about accepting this simple fact? You want water for thirst, air for oxygen, food for stamina and prayer/meditation for inner peace and joy. SIMPLE AS THAT, YES IT IS THAT SIMPLE! Find your way of centering the scattered mind my child.

Well friends today this old man sat and did the deed. I was blessed again with a contact, a touch of THE SOURCE! We can go on looking for "comfort, happiness, serenity,feel good" and all these good stuff outside of our selves. You know the routine, a new lover, a sucessful business of my own, better children, a good mate! Yes indeed none will satisfy the need for the daily nourishment which the spirit within me needs in order for me to have INNER CALM AND PEACE! enough said.

One week without the daily contact with THE SOURCE and already the signs are evident. My usual zest for life is dwendling and the spark is out of my eyes. Well this too shall come to pass. If I have any sense at all, I'd be to my daily prayer soon enough. You too my child remember, that as long as you long for that union with THE SOURCE, The Weaver will bring you back home. Faith is knowing that your intentions will either save you or destroy you. What are our Intentions today?

There is so much to be done and so little time. I have to count the Bees in hive and find the looplholes in my mind. Finish the windmill's angle of dungle and give a receipt to the ONE who keeps giving without fail whilst I wonder about in my own made up world! Ahhhh.. laddy tis be the season for lovers not warriors!

Wait on the Lord! Chew your words before uttering them! Endure patiently and gently. In this way when the storm is gone you will have lost very little and gained even more in charactor

Dead days are days in my life when I don't care whether I am being useful and productive or not. They are days that I do whatever it takes to forget myself and life, vege out and not be concerned at all about what or who might need my attention. It seems that once or twice a year this phenomenon happens, accrues, and I just simply go with it. Some shrink may insist on giving it a name like (temporary depression) and even insist on prescribing some mood altering drug to help me get through this time, but I know better, that is why we have so many screwed up folks now, because they have been convinced that it is not "OK" to feel bad or down or depressed. Here! take a pill you'll be just fine, you should go on a vacation, you aughta to be on some doctor's care man, you need help! Well we've heard it all. This too shall come to pass as have the other times of "IMBALANCE" and God will restore me to my old positive life giving self. Work with me people, it

Greatfulness is a state of mind which if nourished and practiced will most certainly lead to serenity and calm. How do I know this? Well I have spent the last 35 years looking for just such an elixer. Now the question is really what is the state of always being greatful? Not complaning about the have nots,and being content. GO FISH BUDDY, GO FISH!

I thought I would be over this feeling of loss and confusion by now! I have been back for 11 days now and still cannot seem to get used to my life here in the States. The feeling is almost nearing depression because I can't even get myself motivated to do what needs to be done around the house. May be it is because there is so much to do, the yard needs attention, the house and my business and the not having any body around to share these things with. I don't know, I do hope though that I won't have to endure much more of this feeling. My own medicine of daily prayer too has suffered, I just plain don't know how to deal with not being up and optomistic about every thing. Not that I have lost hope or feeling depressed, just confused as to what I am supposed to be doing next. I'd like to just drop everything and go back to Iran again where I seemed to at least have a purpose . God help me maintain and remain steadfast.

Every body talks about God as if His essence is known to them.God this and God that, God begat a son and did such and such. God is merciful and God is so and so. In reality all we have to go by is some body else's words and interpretations. I'd ratherthink of God as the MASTER DESIGNER, THE ELEQUENT PAINTER, THE EVERPRESENT, MOST GRACEFUL.Now these I can live with, as I see the design of life,I look to understand the designer. As I see the beauty of colors around me, I look to the painter's hands at work.Without any consiederation for guilt and sin,like to have a relationship with this master of all masters. This MASTER CHEF! this MASTER ENGINEER! I say if this God were to say anything about himself we'd probably hear something like "I am that from which all things eminate". Hey! if we have learned anything from the years of science it is that all things came from one source, so let's call it God if we must, it is just another word. But create he did, pres

Imaginations can easily be most creative force in our lives or the most destructive. I gusee it is like every thing else in this Yin/Yang dual natured world of ours. But beware my child, of your imaginations when they have you thinking of who said what and what did they mean and how come......blah blah blah! You can run your nerves ragged by imaginning stories about what might have been. Let go of the need to be right or to win all battles. Be FREE of all that burdens your mind and soul. Heal your body this way!

Confusion after a long journey is normal. Coming back to what was and trying to remember just where to start back with the life I left behind nearly five month ago is much more difficult this time than ever before. I wonder why? Am I a different man? Is it because every other time after a long absence I would come back to a home wih some one there? Are the times really that different now and the energies so vastly more sensitive to my input? The first two or so nights I didn't even feel like doing my ritual prayer at the end of the night! wow!! I am certain though, that as these days go by and I settle in, I will find that indeed I am a much changed man ready for the stuff that I have been preparing for all my life. I am after all wearing "THE RING" which I never dared to before.

I heard once that we will all get used to the good and the bad of this world. That we will each find our own way of praying or honoring God. That some will give all they have freely while others will hord and miser every single penny while others yet suffer heavily just to keep enough pennys to support their lives. Now hear this my child! the best thing I have to give is my time, the most I can lose is just stuff and I will always have enough if I learn to be content with the good things I have first.

I make Yoghurt today, and Tabooli too, I will pay some bills and answer some letters. All along however, I remain the same man working to remember how fleeting this life is and keeping my attention fixed on the more permanant address I am about to have soon.

If we knew just what works perfect every time, perhaps we would all be doing just that. But there are very very few "Absolute Truths" which apply to us all. Consistancy is a part hope, and hope is all any one ever has for going forward with any plan.

EXPECT A MIRACLE EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE, AND LOOK FORWARD TO UNDERSANDING YOUR SELF A BIT MORE EACH DAY. YOU ARE THE MIRACLE!

First notes in the States after a rest at my daughter's home after the long flight. It is hard to belive that I am at my own desk again and the journey home is over. In a moment it began and in a blink it was over. Yesterday is but a dream! tomorrow not yet formed, and forever NOW is all I have ever had. Shokran Rabbie!

Good bye is such sweet sorrow that without it hellos would not be quite as heart warming. Let the laughters be the memory most clear in our moments of remembrance. Let me remember you my love as you are now together, helpful, and kind to one another.

Judge not lest you be judged by the same standard and not be able to live up to your own expectations. GOD, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCETP THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE. Amen brother man!

Judge not lest you be judged by the same measures and not be able to live up to your own expectations! God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference. Amen brother man!

Judge not lest you be judged by the same standard and not be able to live up to your own expectations. GOD, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCETP THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE. Amen brother man!

Judge not lest you be judged by the same standard and not be able to live up to your own expectations. GOD, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCETP THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE. Amen brother man!

Judge not lest you be judged by the same standard and not be able to live up to your own expectations. GOD, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCETP THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE. Amen brother man!

It is so easy to get caught up in the who said what game. We tend to make far too much adiu over such incidents and spen far too much time mentalizing over them in private as well as in our sleep! Letting go of the need to be right or to be found inocent or to win at all costs is a good starting point for freedom of the spirit.

One can only change the world around himself if he is willing to admit how difficult it is to change a single thing about himself. Know yourself and you have known God.

A daily practice of keeping in touch, is like connecting to a most powerful source of energy. I am indeed blessed with such a link! On a daily basis(twice a day) I see myself setting down and meditating upon the gracious ways of this Creator of all things, this Source of all that exits, and just by doing so, I have received THE FORCE FROM WHICH ALL THINGS EMINATE!!

The learning continues to be daily. For the Human there is nothing except that for which he has toiled. In order to extract the fine gold from the coarse rocks, fire is needed and a great deal of it! Thank you my Lord for helping this old shaman grow in Grace and elequence of your touch! Lead on my good shepard!!

Thirteen days later, and I am looking for words to say that I must now and for a long time keep to my self, in order to better serve those who seem to need my service. The very act of trying and not letting go, has indeed caused me to not be able to maintain! God will help deliver me indeed. I am certain.

Let this day too reflect only the Love I feel for you. The Grace with which you fill my life is beyond words, so let this humble servant only say to all his friends and children, LET GO AND LET GOD AND BE FREE!

If one has a tendency to judge the people around her/him with preconceived notions which in most cases do not reflect the reality. Then what is the receiving person to do in order to keep the harmony? If the nature of a dog is to bark upon the sight of another animal or human, is the human any less of a human for having been at the receiving end of this barking actioin? Not to make light of our human interactions, but for the most part, the loud noises of judgements are nothing but the barkings of dogs in the streets.

Thank you Lord for this day, so full of your grace and abundance. Thank you for your touch, so gentle, so kind. Let me not forget this day my Love for you have awaken me again.

How is it that for most of us average folks the intruduction of money into our daily friendships and family ties seem to always create tension? It is as if we cannot mix family matters and money or loan a dollar amount to a close relative without attaching certain emotional expectations to it. The family or relative too seems to feel less than tenderness towards us once we have given him/her money to be helpful. Is it because we do attach these "look I am doing you a favour" to the money or because the person receiving the money is already feeling badly about themselves for having asked for the loan in the first place. All of these my child are manifestations of the Ego, because in and of itself money is only a matter of mathematics.

One more time for the sake of the old times. Let there be peace on this Earth and make me an instrument of this peace my Lord. All I ever wanted was to be that instrument through which healing springs forth and humility is abundant. 7-26-04 Trust is something that builds