I thought I would be over this feeling of loss and confusion by now! I have been back for 11 days now and still cannot seem to get used to my life here in the States. The feeling is almost nearing depression because I can't even get myself motivated to do what needs to be done around the house. May be it is because there is so much to do, the yard needs attention, the house and my business and the not having any body around to share these things with. I don't know, I do hope though that I won't have to endure much more of this feeling. My own medicine of daily prayer too has suffered, I just plain don't know how to deal with not being up and optomistic about every thing. Not that I have lost hope or feeling depressed, just confused as to what I am supposed to be doing next. I'd like to just drop everything and go back to Iran again where I seemed to at least have a purpose . God help me maintain and remain steadfast.
LEGACY OF A JOURNEY
LOOK WHO IS? Salaam(peace children); What does the sparrow say to Spring in the air? when will my children see unity in face of all separateness? When the time is right, only then will the true seeker see, even with the same eyes which hitherto were unable to do so. Ripen apples fall freely from the tree no reason to hold on to the old life once I was an unripen fruit once I had visions of grandeur and magnificence! Ahhh....how fools rush in where wise men will not enter. Be ever so like the river flowing, not clinging free from the form free from the pain forms contain always seeking the WAY HOME! From morning until night fall that is all THAT IS ALL ONLY GOD ALWAYS GOD ALL GOD ALONE GOD ONLY
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