Even in my lowest, most destructive behavior times ( and they do come around when I have some smoke!) I thank God for keeping the faith that all is well with God. I may be experiencing a down day (dead days) now, but because I have FAITH UNBROKEN I know tomorrow or the day after I will be lifted up again out of my darkness. Each time I go through this, a little part of my "black dog" dies unot his desires and wants, and my geni(spirit within) gets a bit stronger. In short, we all are works in progress not finished products. Death is not the end either, we have to get it right.