shaman's thoughts

It seems like the closer I get to the destination (if one could indeed say that) the tougher the tasks and tests of endurance and perseverance become. I am put on the verge of losing all cordiality and civility at times when I encounter the total disregard by my own family and relatives for our shared humanity and our home the little planet Earth! None will think twice about using paper to wipe a spill rather than using a towel which can be washed and reused. Their eating habbits too are getting under my skin which displays no regard for the health of the body or the mind. But I am told again and again by masters of time that I can only be the witness not the judge, only be true to mine own self, and flow with the river of life. For it is written more than once, what I do,say, or think will indeed come back to me, so be careful my child let not your own negativity come back to disrupt your harmony.

Just when you think you have it all figured out and wanna settle in for the night, life hands you a loud note of awakening proportion decibles. The kind that only dogs can hear when they know about an earthquake ahead of time. Now it is always about growing up and learning of course, so the rests are like recess, just enough to take in a little play time, then back to work you go my children, until the day you die. simple enough?

Where then is this peace and serenity everyone seems to talk about and know about? My child, it only resides within yourself. As you encounter the world and its daily events (in which you have to participate), the peace and serenity I speak of helps you make clear choices, have better judgements about your reactions and not get all knotted up indside every time things don't go your way. It is your CENTER of calm in the sea of chaos. All you have to do is go there two or three times a day to quiet the mind and just BE! You cannot scape having a flat tire so long as you drive a car.

Life is not the addition of this or that "thing" in order to have or not have a way of measuring our successes or faileures.It is not about anything of the this world at all in fact, but how we accept or live the life after this one. I tell you verily my child, the life of this world is but a passing fancy and a school of learning, the real measure of your life is in how you shall enter the next world after your death from this one.

There are times we have to take drastic measures, maybe even show a stern face with perhaps a feel of disgust or anger mixed in. If however, the energies we are using to do this task are from the heart with no true long term negativity is attached,then our messege will get across as solid and if the ego's get hurt they will not be in the way of future peace. A child "wants" something and we know it is not wise to allow him to have it, being stern here does not have to include yelling or feeling worked up inside. Just do it and have no remorse for hurting the kid's feelings.

Patience is a virtue not offered to all, and when it is offered it comes with stipulations. "my son just got this girl pregnant" said a friend today, while crying her eyes out. "patience my friend" I said; "You cannot live his life for him, but in enduring this pain you too will gain just as he is learning the value of forsite while growing up with his mistakes."

Unified field and all the other ways we have tried to combine the forces of the universe into one has indeed brought us to the very thereshold of God's front door on the very first moment of creation. We are still looking for a good explanation of the Gravity force to have it behave within our scope. But what is really funny to myself is that there will always be that last microfraction of the nano second which will need yet another explanation, and we will be faced with no choice but to "SUBMIT" TO GOD. Just as he has said all along.

There will always be sad sights in our world, thieves too will come and steel, and wars will be waged by ignorant politicians and war mongers. But the Sun too will always show its wonderous face from the East, goodness will be felt by some and peace made after long bitter feuds. Where your attention resides my child, is how your day will shape.

I pray today for the soul that is bound within my body. I force my lazy body to sit and be in touch with the source of energies unbound in order to help the poor soul get relief from the urges and arrogance of this body's mind. To become free at last from this imprisonment of form/matter.

We think of death as a finality, an end. Yet it could not be any further removed from reality of life's ever-flowing energies which have had no begining and no end. Matter and energy have been in a constant dance of enterchanging and neither the begining nor the end has ever been revealed to anyone. The MASTER DESIGNER is well in control, and all any one of us can do is guess and try to approximate the whys and how's of the dance. The science of String Theory is the closest we have come to that approximation! Go read on it.

It is like the essence of youth we keep chasing through pills, oils, and this and that, the damn thing just runs to the first new born child and evades us old farts. The eternal stuff is not all its carcked up to be my child, but life itself is not worth having so long if it is without purpose and clearness of dystiny. Where are you going? What is it you are seeking for your life's worth after you are dead?

Recall o' children of Adam, the Israelites whom I freed from the bonds of the Farohs of Egypt, yet they remined doubtful. Recall too the story of Jobe, whom I tested with plagues and misfortunes and he remained steadfast in his faith. Now you too must choose, follow the darkness or bring the light within your hearts? You are indeed free to choose! As you will be the one who must live with your choices, daily.

just got home from Oklahoma, a 14 hour solid drive! God bless you for my health and the ability to have done so without any harm or damage, no accidents, and no surprizes. I thank you for my health, indeed I am the richest man I know this side of the Mississipi and just north of the Equator!

We talked about sin and its varieties, we had a good time! Every one will have to eventually come up with their own limits of how much is too much or how little is not enough. If hell is reserved for the Hitlers of the world or the wolves in sheep's clothing taking from the poor to line their own pockets, or those holy men using God's name as a tool for their own lustful ways; Then I will not feel sinful at all to have copied a software from my friend's cd to use on my computer. Let the account build up and I will deal with it when I get to the other side! But it is not about sin my child, it is about fairness and the energies we live with. It is about honor amongst thieves. It is about breaking a heart with malice, taking and never giving.

Some times in my practice of holistic health I run across clients who even after the healing takes place, have a hard time believing how inexpensive and uncomplicated the process was. A fellow with chronic constipation just does not want to accept responsibility for the problem. "Just because I don't like vegetables and fruits, I have to suffer indigestion and digestive problems?" he asked, and my answer was again "yes, it is up to you and what you eat, it is not your body's problem, it is your problem

Stay put, do the deeds you need to do, remember where you came from and care about where you are headed. In doing so you have my child started the begining of a journey to NIRVANA! where is that? A place of harmony, where it all makes perfect sense. Be grateful for gains but for losses too!

What then is the purpose of strugling if there is no hope of a destination? What then is the hope of a destination if not to be done with the strugle? And what is hope without proior results having been seen by other strugling men? Indeed, I hope because I know of those who finished the journey and sent word of NO MORE PAIN, NO MORE STRUGLES

Thank you today for my health and the way you have so graciosly tought me the art of healing others. I am greatful too for the gift of meditation and prayer, it calms the churning mind and brings focus to it. The vastness of your presence is far too great a phenomenon to put into words my love, so let the light of your presence glow through my pours.

Your head is the ladder to the heavens, to get on this ladder and ascend, you must first learn how to bring the head down to you feet! It is the EGO which stands between you and you beloved, not time, nor space

In my prayers I have always asked to be a humble servant for God's sake and to walk in his will. It is at times so difficult my Lord to be the servant amidst the non-believers. You test me by putting me in situations where help is needed but it requires so much more patience than I seem to be able to muster. I am nonetheless so grateful my Love for your touch, and when I think of how all your messengers went through persecutions and much worse simply to deliver your message of LOVE! Bless You, Indeed!

we spent some time working on some skin rashes which were on a mother and couple of her kids. The conversation however, was about why and how one gets into situations which then create these physical manifestaions. The kid does some kind of dope, and has not truely accepted responsibility for most of the events in her life. But today, we cried, we laughed and we talked only about HOPE in the future, when God is a part of our daily life. It actually felt good, and the little ones, they love their MOM.

Grace in our lives is like sunshine, we need it and our very living depends on it. Like the Sun however, we must take the step outside and allow it to give us its goodness. Sitting indoors in dark shaded rooms or hoping for the goodness does not make it happen. To have grace in our lives, we need to do the deeds, walk the walk, sit with THE ONE who has the GRACE to give. In other words, pray, meditate, take time to be with HIM who is Full of Grace, is all Grace!

With the recent advances in Nano technology the reality of having computers or any electronic gadget as small as a wrist watch is just around the corner. DNA of viruses and bacterias are being bred as we speak to become more and more capable of attaching themselves to any material and proceed to duplicate its molecular construction, thereby enabling the living dna to become the builder of circuitry for trnsmitting data! Results are faster, more powerful machines which can mend their broken circuits too! Now that's AI on its way to the Matrix revisited!

Eight days into the new year, and I am still having to correct my dates from 03 to 04! We dismiss such habitual modes of operation as normal and think nothing of it. Now, what if this "habitual" action caused more than just a wrong date on a journal, what if the habitual way of our mind having become fixated on a certain thing caused harm to us or someone else? Can you think of how many "havbitual" things there are you do and KNOW that the result of which are indeed not derieable? What now my child? How do you wish to justify, ratify, or plain fix those errors?

The appliances break or quit working, door hinges get busted out of the cabinets, the little ones cry for attention and the family dog is running away with my socks. I am at my daughter's home visiting as the old wise dad who comes once a year or so and hopes to be helpful while enjoying the visit with the grand kids and everyone else in the family. I find myself remebering how tough it was to make sense of all that seem to go wrong just when we don't need another problem. Then I am silenced because I realize my kids have to go through these days of their lives and find their own peace.

We sat down to talk about God and life and ended up trying to make sense of human relations. Is the consumer of crack and cocaine at fault or the middle man who gets it, the scientists who made the formula, or the farmer who has grown the cocoa leaves for generations? Or better yet, is our general lack of closeness to God causing us humans to go so astray? As in lack of some coherent standard of morals which helps the farmer and the adict with the same money. We are not all equals, that is for certain.

We think of love as some emotional feeling kind of thing. Even mistake it with having great liking for something like a movie or a food. But love if used correctly is a word which encompasses compassion, honor, trust,dignity, tenderness, selflessness, and more, much, much more. So please my child, do not say "I LOVE YOU" so casually(like you love The Simpsons and French toast). I just might hold you to its deeper meanings and you fail me as you most certaily will in this matter. Just show me, let your deeds say what you really want to say, and if you must say it then be prepared for that love to be tested; Not by me, but by the means of your own words and actions.

Just arrived at the house of my older daughter after driving for about 19 hours, being on the road for actually 24 hours. I do not remeber why it is important to keep in touch now, but I am certain of the goodness! We attach such importance to "Family" and knowing the grand kids, or the causins and aunts and uncles, yet I do not honestly think that is why I am here. As the man, not the father, I have something to offer these kids, and like all my life's events, the body is put where there is a need, and the spirit does the work, the body in this case has no choice but to follow.

How many deaths does it take until the man knows, that too many people have died? Yes and how many years must a mountain live, before it is washed to the sea? The answer my friend, is blowing in the wind, the answer is floating in the air, the answer my friend is clear; No despair.

It will as usual take some getting used to, we are in a new year and the dates we put down must reflect that. In this very simple example of our habitual way of operations, one can learn much about one's other habitual actions which at times seem even in contradiction with the words we utter! Let there be resolve this year my child, to be free of SELF!