Does it ever feel like you are not the principal participant in your own life? As if forces beyond your understanding pull you hither and fro? An old addiction you thought you were free of sneaks back into your life and next thing you know it is a month since you felt "BALANCED" ? Yet and still you can remember clearly that just a short time ago things were different. You had grabbed hold of a stream of energy which was propelling you ever upwards to a dimension that "MATTER" Did not matter. There was grace and where is it now? A true seeker must more than anything else learn about "FLOWING" without guilt or shame or any negativity attached to the daily dance of living/being here in this school of life on the planet Earth bound by the sphere called the firmament. When one can remain on such a stream of flowing energy, truly nothing ever goes wrong. I seem to have that certainty and steadfastness more so when I am in a community of friends and loved ones for whom I can provide a service. I do better in other words for others as oppose to for my own self. We all seem to be that way if I am not mistaken. Not that all of us are eager to serve, but that the energy of others needing us or counting on us seem to bring the best in us. Maybe it is the satisfaction of being recognized or appreciated, but what does it matter? If I adhere to acts which enhance my life and propel me forward to a better me, why not then? We need to interact with others, be in the world of activities and interactions; Else, we shall never know if indeed we are better humans today than we were yesterday for lack of having our "buttons" pushed!
I am really trying to keep my usual positive and hopeful attitude towards our humanity and mankind in general, but recent events have brought the old anger back in me which is really frustration and anxiety about Politicians and the money mongers of the world about which I can take no real action of any significance. I see hunger and destitude in the masses of this U.S. of A, the richest country on earth, I see the very weak and the elderly, the homeless and the hard working class suffer while the political will of some nuts is runnning amock! God help me to accept what I can change and that over which I have no control, and please God give me the wisdom to know the difference. It is nothing new, just different land, different time in the history of the ignorant man and the greed of the fools!
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