shaman's thoughts

Expecting people, places, and things to behave a certain way in order for me to have peace is nothing more than the old way of thiking that I can wish or control these element to do as it pleases me. Accept more and expect less my love, learn to flow with your eyes cast on the heart of God who is really responsible for all of it. There! you have just been relieved of your duty child, step down.

"The present is the golden gate.Here-now is the golden gate. And you can be in the present only if you are not ambitious - No accomplishment, no desire to achieve power, money, prestige, even enlightenment, because all ambition leads you into the future." Osho Zen master. This is a tough one to swallow isn't it? I go to school with ambitions of tomorrow, I plant seeds with the ambitions of the harvest. What is he saying then? The lesson is a kwan, learn to be here now even as you plant the seeds for tomorrow because you can only BE ALIVE here and NOW! dEtAcH from the AnTiCiPaTiOn of TomOrrOw. The gate is before you now, where are you?

My dream got away from me the other night, it went away for what seemed like a long time. I don't know where it went and how long it was gone, but when it returned it had the scent of you all over it. The other side of this dream just lead to being awaken again to my longing heart seeking your embrace!

"A free man belongs to himself and nobody else.A free man is simply an energy with no name, no form, no race, no nation."Osho Zen master. Do we hear National Anthems or the sound of the creative silence of God? Is it an us and them; mine and yours thing? Or is it all one self, one mind, one presence? Who is FREE? He who is free of all subjective labels and desires.

"Happiness is permanent.It is always there.What comes and goes is unhappiness.If you identify with what comes and goes, you will be unhappy.If you identify with what is permanent and always there, you are happiness itself." Poonjaji wisdom. Come let go now of all worldly concerns, all at once! If I do not desire, I am never disappointed, unhappy. What of going forward? said one student. You my child, have no choice in that matter! Rivers will not run back.

I am judged on many occasions by friends and loved ones for having a humble home in a poor neighborhood with used furniture and for not having the "drive" to seek more monetary goods and means of this world even though I am educated enough and capable of doing so. I have even been told by some that they feel ashamed for me! even though they admire my knowledge and wisdom in areas of medicine and metaphysics. I asked one "how can you honor me as the wise shaman, and not respect my choice of dwelling?" Is my house who I am? Am I the clothes I were or the money I have in the bank? Is my honor directly connected to how well I do business in search of monetary gains?" Or whether I have published books and gained notoriety? Indeed this note is a reconfirmation of my stance which is as solid as my spirit in love. The fleeting nature of worldly goods and " stuff " has proven beyond any doubt the necessity of a life free from the desire to gather much of them...

Maybe you do not know about falling, maybe you have not been humbled yet, but know this O' child of the universe, that before the Sun sets for the last time in the sky of thine days, ye shall have tasted humility's potion in the destiny's cup! Tis not for me but to warn, and then if I judge thee not in emotions but only name thee by thy own perditions, I know not why I aught not do so. For I love thee my child to the depth of mine old bones and ye know this not. Let this matter hang near by thine ears my love and let your heart rest assured that with every hardship there shall come ease, indeed with every hardship there shall be ease!