shaman's thoughts

My own battles with all the different drug use throughout my life has taught me one certain undeniable lesson, If I need a drug to calm me or to have peace and fun, then I am not whole! Learning however my love, is a life long journey. As long as we live in this world and are a part of its ways, we will have to learn new things about ourseleves and others on an ongoing basis. Peace and harmony in life are not cheap nor easy to keep. decerning good from evil is needed, judging other's shortcomings however, is hardly ever fruitfull.

Life is all about going forward, what you do for a living is not as important as what you do with your living! It is all about maturing and becoming a whole human in the end.The course is layed and the ink is dryed. All you do is follow the pathways before you. One does not gain by not losing! risks do build character just by their nature of struggle.

It is not whether you are alone that should matter to you my child, but how lonely you are! Many die a lonely death with hundreds gathered around them. In your heart my child, in your heart, seek to keep the company of God who will never betray nor be unfair to you. The Best Friend Ever!!

Let actions carry forward our intents, and let those intents be always coming forth from a heart yearning for the end of its journey home. This world is but a prison for the heart that resides within our souls, which is not of this world. It is a drop of dew wishing to go back to its ocean home.

As I drove to work yesterday the feeling of being alive in the middle of a vast unkown universe hit home when I felt the warmth of this November Sun on my face through the windshield. My God how great indeed art thou! Imagine my child that at the speed of light it would take us 50,000 years just to clear the edge of our own galaxy, and this wonderful Creator has infinite number of such galaxies beyon ours in the palm of his hand. Yes indeed, Great is our heavenly Father who shall not fit into words or imaginations of any.

If anyone is paying attention here, you notice that I am staying on track with the notion that we have the knowledge and the means to be "as perfect as our father in heaven" and this old man's life long endeavour has been to do just that and be the best sample of our common intended humanity. It has taken 33 years and perhaps another 33 years aught to do the trick! So if you are alive then, look me up! I'll be the white haired simple one who has nothing!

Creatures of habits as we are, it has always been suggested by teachers of self realization to change as many of our "old" habits as we can and add in their place instead better ones which enhance our journey to wholeness. In the process of the battle (yes good ones, there will be a battle trying to tell the old mind not to do what it has done for so long!!) we will grow and activate parts of our brain which then can direct us towards the goal of resolvement. I am going to (God willing!) cut my T.V. viewing time down to nothing for a while, no T.V.! no movies, not even on my computer, I will instead fill the time with music, reading , work on my website, and learning something new.

Contentment is a treasure lost to the "want" generation. If any of you children of Adam should find at any moment that being content is worth more than having all your wants fulfilled, hang on to that moment, for it very well could become the birth of wisdom in you. Reduce wants and you shall reduce pains, just that simple.

Let me add a bit more to yesterday's notes if I may. Our concious awareness of what our attention is fixated on is one of the most powerful tools we have in realizing the ultimate goal of bieng a "cool, together, resolved, harmonious" human in the face of all life's challenges. A fight I had with my mate, friend, or boss, can and usually does dominate most of my time thereafter untill things are worked out. But imagine being able to tell the brain that I the owner of this "Temple" have decided not to dwell on that issue for now and instead want to meditate or take a walk with just a song on my mind. Well, this is indeed how we create an environment within ourselves to then go back and be able to resolve the issues or just plain let go of the stuff which usually prove silly in hindsight anyway. My attention and intentions create the world in which I live daily.

It is your attention stupied! where is your attention fixed at? what is it fixated on? that is your reality, get it?! A person seeing only all that is wrong with the world would not have much go right in his own daily life, chance takes over and will goes out the window. Heed this my child, Trust in the Master Designer and learn to look for progress always. Still waters grow much algae, flow then and gather no moth! No fears, No regrets, act in the NOW and strive to do good.

We missed another day of our humanity at war and maham! It could be cause for losing hope if one was so inclined to put one's attention on only these events of human tragedies and "growing up" story of the human race! But; why? There must be a gazilion other events which do and can effect our own daily little lives down 2nd and western in Anytown, U.S.A. IT IS ALL ABOUT WHERE YOUR ATTENTION STAYS THAT YOUR LIFE IS AS IT IS!

Touch the early dawn's rays of light and say a few words to the Dawn Maker! Ahhhhh! therein lies the best of energies to carry you through the rest of your day. Directly from the very source of energy. Help me my Lord to visit you more often and more eagerly, I feel weak in your absence!

Holidays are here again for the those who celebrate them. And for those who have no reason to. Being joyous is one thing, but going into debt buyin gifts is a cause for distress and anxiety. I see it in my line of work almost robotical, holidays come, folks get sick, blame it on the bug that does not exist and start taking drugs which won't help! and then there is uncle Luther no one wants to deal with when he is durnk, God help us all! HAPPY HOLIDAYS ALL!

A friend said to me that I was aspiring too high, that I was looking for that white camel on 42nd ave. in N.Y. city! A perfect human is not what I am proposing, indeed I believe by the time a human is close to his highest potential (which all the good books refer to as Godhead, being as perfect as our God in heaven , etc..) he/she will have to die to this physical form. It is the optimum of our potentiality that I advocate, we have fallen so, so, short of that. If indeed we believe that we were created in God's own image, what kind of God are we portraying by our actions and our world today? For those who do not believe in this God!

Just a reminder to myself and whoever is paying attention; Our goal is to ultimately produce a "whole human" a specimen if you were of what an optimum potential of the human race might look and act like! It is above all the only REAL thing any one of us can do with his/her life. Think about this one my child, what would an ambassador of human race, a symbol of our humanity's highest aspirations and achievements would look and act like in the presence of, shall we say an alien species? Specially if they could test it and had predetermined values of just such a human!

So I get the feeling that for the most part our humanity is going through what its thing not because of our intents but because of our consentrated attentions or attachments to these intentions. Knowing that outward expressions are merely a fraction of our true intents within; I am forever trying to get the two to be one and the same in my own life, so as to not add to the confusion. If I cannot say something good, I'll just shut up outwardly and quiet the judgemental self inside me as well. Easier said than done!

If I were to tell you that we have both the knowledge and the materials to produce totally emission free fuels for our vehicles and factories, how would you then feel about a government who intentionaly halts the production of such fuels? Ineed it is not just "a government" it is our entire socio-economics in today's world that will not allow such actions because "well, our entire world's economic structures will collapse!" Se La Vi my love, how foolish is man?

If the String Theory (or the M theory as it is called now) proves to be right by experimental methods as it has in mathemtical equations, we will have to admit that Love is not a word but a constant, we either have it or we don't, just by putting the word in a sentence we do not portray love. And here; I am not talking about love for French Fries or football.

Most organized religions today are basicaly corrupt and have lost THE WAY! Money has enetered the picture in mega bucks porportions and our preachers wear ties and jewels and ride in fancy cars. Christ on the other hand only owned two woolen robes and one set of undergarments(Ghandi made a better Christian that Mr. Oral Roberts does). Christ worked for a living and never took a dime from the chruch (well he had no church actually). In fact every prophet of God had an accupation for his livelihood, when people gave Alms, it was to help the needy and work on the needs of the community. Times have changed? you bet ya!

Christ said to a deciple "you speak of me as an incarnation of God. Let me show you something, come with me" A short distance later Christ pointed to a direction and said "what do you see there?" the deciple said " a big tree with black berries hanging in bunches." Christ said "those are not black berries, go nearer and look at them." Upon approaching the tree the deciple saw that they were Christs hanging in bunches. "Do you see now," said Christ, "how many Christs like me have grown here?"

If we but knew how exquisitely energies move, create or destroy, and how much we individually contirbute to this function of "reality creation"; we should certainly go mad from the pressure of such awsome responsiblility. Know this for certain my child, your thoughts and words uttered by you do indeed create the world you live in daily.

A desciple asked his teacher, "Sir, please tell me how I can see God?" "come with me and I will show you" He took the desciple to a lake and both got into the water. Suddenly the teacher pressed the desciple's head under the water and held him there with much force. After a few minutes he released him and as the desciple was gasping for breath the teacher asked; "how did you feel?" The desciple still dumb founded and breathless said; "I thought I shoud die!" The teacher said, "When you feel like that for God, then you know you haven't long to wait for His vision" A Sufi story offered here from the heart to yours my child, take heed!

A Zen Budhist teacher once said: "If you continue going forward along the path, the object which you seek, will come to be yours for certain." All my life I have sought to be a good servant in God's ways, and the nearer the end of my journey I get, the more the saying of this teacher becomes real.

It is easy to be sinical about every thing and anything. It is another to be aware of the sinful ways in which the world is living and avoid the pitfals. If the citizens of the U.S. and Israel do not awaken to the oppressive ways their respective governments are dealing with the Palestinian and the Iraqis, it should then be no surprize to see the reverbrations come back to the whole of the world in a quantum way. How does one tell such an arrogant one that he is indeed the cause not the cure of what ails our world?

They asked the prophet Mohammad "how many ways are there to pray and worship God"; "As many ways as there are people upon this Earth" he replied. Salvation is only a word, the true state of harmony with God's universal laws is indeed the meaning in action. THINK WELL, SAY WELL, DO WELL and you are saved.

Abraham too had to break his father's traditions of Stone gods. Arabs used to bury their female newborns alive because of traditions until the prophet Mohammad came and broke them of that bad habbit. If a tradition or habbit is not propelling you forward my child, to become a better human, and indeed it is hindering your path, then abandon it fast. Seek wise counsil any time you can to make that judgement.

..."But its halloween dad!" she said as she tried to justify her chipped filling in one of her teeth. My daughter had called to seek advise as to what to do about a chipped tooth situation and perhaps ended up learning about what traditions one must follow and which ones are best left out of her life regardless of how many generations have been doing this routinized ritual. Just because you have been doing something "like everybody else" for a long time does not make the act sane or good for you. A wrong act is a wrong act at any age or time. Learn my child to be free and aware; As bad traditions are just as bad as junk food in your mental body! Any tradition which encourages one to get stuffed with all manners of candy needs reexamining, at least the eating of all that candy part.

The family of Man is falling apart and it breaks the heart of this old father to no end. With a loud silent rage I have withnessed these children of Adam forget their humanity and embrace the selfish ways of the Evil one. I remain hopeful even so, because I am the father who got forgotten and remembered all in the same second, and remains steady just the same! Father in heaven! grand your servants patience!